A mess (poem)

The shining path that falls apart.
The sting o’ hundred poison darts.
Feeling like we ought to laugh.
As we fire off the staff.
Left to write in broken thoughts
Haunted by the lies we bought.
Kept afloat by hooks and strings
and hope for what the future brings.

Although we walk with heads face down
Our minds are always with the clouds.
So Fear we not the light of day
Fear we not the dark and strange.
Hear we not the staggered cries
Hear we not the whispered lies.
Hear we may with open eyes.
Hear the shifting slow surprise.

As death hath stared us face to face
We quickly find our proper place.
A world that spins and spins again.
It spins and dances without end.
Just as that we aim to be.
In cycles of eternity.
Without reason to stand still
We dance away our debts and bills.
Shaking off our worldly ties
Transcending toward our final lives.

Slowly walking down the street.
With no idea of who we’ll meet.
Still you’ve felt this all before.
Soon to learn what stakes are for.
Be careful when you call the bluff.
For one wrong move may be enough.

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Cure (poem)

Darkness draining from your bones.
Left to drip and dry alone.
Brand new life breathed into thee
Slowly thy began to see.
A hundred years of wounds and scars
All shut before the shining stars.

A trembled shift unto your knees.
Almost dropped by a passing breeze.
On shaking feet you try to stand,
and fall but catch the ground in hand.
Till at once we lift you up.
With unseen hands you’ll learn to trust.
A flash of light beams from the sky
With messages that flood the eyes.
Suddenly your not so cold.
No longer feeling wretched and old.
Cracked old skin feels new and smooth.
No longer does it hurt to move.

The energy that courses through
Hath been cleansed, again renewed.
You shed your chains and than your locks
Traded pains for spirit drops.

So if your heart is filled with hate
Take control of your own fate,
So long as your soul survives
The mind can always be revived.
Before your spirit turns to gray
Become the cure you need today.

30 Sketches from Drac

Drac, one of my childhood friends, has given me some of his work to publish on the site.

Drac is incredibly talented, his art work blows mine out of the water. These are a must see; especially if you enjoy Halloween and horror oriented content!

Influence from H.P Lovecraft, Edgar Allen Poe and Tim Burton can be seen pervasively throughout these works of beauty.

All uploaded artwork can be found here: Drac’s Gallery

To check out my not as impressive psychedelic themes artwork check out Alex’s Gallery

Without further ado:

A Sorta New Direction

The Greatest Never Artist Collective

Realistically not much has or ever will change in terms of our goals. Our path remains the same. What has changed; is the detail of our perspective and the depths of our understanding on where that path is leading us.

The Greatest Never as an association, has ascribed itself to the long term goal of transforming into and establishing it’s presence and functionality as a non-specific Artist Collective.

You may be familiar with the term collectivism, though i’m assuming most of you probably aren’t. If by chance you are, than it’s likely you may have heard it tossed around with other big name economic and political ideas like communism, socialism, and anarchism.

 In relation to these, collectivism is one of  socialism’s many ideological offspring. Simultaneously collectivism itself also has many different sub-types and interpretations.

Broadly speaking one could generalize it as economically resembling a form of libertarian-communism while being both anarchistic in nature and functioning like a direct-democracy in terms of it’s administration.

What is a Collective?

To answer more specifically we must define collectivism. 

The Merriam-Webster Dictionary provides the following definitions for collectivism both of which are applicable:

1. A political and economic theory advocating collective control over production and distribution. Also a system marked by such control (collective). 

2. Emphasis on the Collective rather than individual action or identity.

So a collective is essentially a system; in our case a small autonomous, mixed-motive organization; in which the means of production, and distribution are collectively shared.  So an artist crollective would simply be a collective that shared their means to create works of art, as well as market, promote, showcase and distribute such works.

On a very basic level we already have this established. Any member of the team is able to promote just about any creative work they want on TGN or any of it’s related platforms. Reguardless of whether it’s for profit or not, TGN is our collective hub and utility for reaching an audience and showcasing things that we’ve done,  made, want to say. etc.

For the sake of building upon and entertaining my fantastical visions, what if we somehow managed to step up our size in one way or another. That way could be anything from finding a patron, releasing a high selling album, or book, or even just organizing ourselves better and being more consistent, efficient, and proactive with our content creation and output.

I suppose if that were to happen the next step would be to acquire a warehouse. Therei Set up an office, a couple DIY recording studio, practice and jam area, acquire a variety of instruments, art supplies, areas for painting, sculpting, modeling, crafting etc, bookshelves full of resources and areas to write, think, and work. Create and maintain our own promotional platforms like newsletters, magazines, etc.

Even more fantastical what would the step after that be? Operating our own venues? museums? libraries?laboratories? studios? radio station? etc? I should stop myself, this is getting too good. Though such talk sounds ambitious and crazy, I know it is, but I’ve always found it better to dream big, and I believe I speak for most of the crew here at TGN when I say that.

Just to clarify this is not collective profit system. Obviously if money was made using the collective equipment, we would expect a very minuscule return to help pay for supplied equipment, and a minuscule cut to contribute to charity.

The idea is not to make money off it’s members, but if the capital is for the benefit of each, than everyone who’s receiving a monetary benefit ought to be doing their part to keep it afloat. Not that we wouldn’t love to see our members contributing as much excess to the growth of the collective as possible, but we understand that won’t be in everyone’s best interest, but perhaps a few of us will be inclined to do so.

If non-for profit, or if for profit but none was made, than obviously we would not expect any form of  monetary contribution. However their are many ways each of us could contribute that wouldn’t cost anything but our time and effort; the more we can manage to accomplish through DIY tactics the better.

10 Ways Anyone can help and contribute that won’t cost a cent.

  1. Turn off Adblock!!!!!

  2. Spread our name through word of mouth, spam our link in random corners of the internet. 

  3. Take some time to read our articles, and check out our various content. 

  4. Share and talk about us through social media, text, email or even just press the like button!

  5. Comment with your thoughts, criticisms and feedback to help us improve on any of our works or aspects of our organization.

  6. Follow us on Social Media: Facebook , Twitter, LinkedIn

  7. Submit something you’d like us to promote or showcase for you. 

  8. Give us a shout-out on you own blog, website, social media, youtube channel etc. 

  9. Become a member! (contact us through email or our facebook page)

  10. Come back and visit soon! Spend some time in our corner of the internet! browse our other sites and content! Leave us a message in the forums!

10 Ways to help and contribute that won’t cost you a cent (Members Specific)

  1. Writing, Creating, thinking up, conjuring, coding, crafting, fashioning, Recording new content to be published, shared, linked to, advertised etc. 

  2. Assisting with the cleaning and maintenance of our as of yet imaginary warehouse/collective safe house and the half imaginary equipment that would be found therein. 

  3. Creation and Distribution of homemade promotional materials. 

  4. Interacting with  readers, followers and fans through comments sections and our social media pages. 

  5. Motivating, assisting, educating, learning from and collaborating with other members. 

  6. Acquire a new skill, form of knowledge, or connection that could be in some way shape or form useful to the collective. 

  7. Turn a skill or form of knowledge you have into a How to, Guide, and or Tutorial. 

  8. Generate, discuss, share and explore ideas for ways to expand and grow the reach, production power, and overall economic value of our organization. 

  9. Sift through old content for mistakes in grammar, spelling and formatting, as well as ways to simplify and or add value. 

  10. Improve yourself in any way shape or form in return making you more useful and valuable to the team. 

‘smooth blue chaos’

>Artist = Rebecca Eynon

>Visual Description = Cool color themed plant-like collage of psychedelic nature

>Name = (as of yet unnamed)

About The Painting

So a very talented and great friend painted this for me recently!

Normally her works are paid commissions. However because we studied together at SUNY Plattsburgh, we know each other quite well.

Rather than pay a commission rate, I was merely required to cover the basic materials.

This saved me over $100!!!

>>>Fast forward to when the paintings done

When I first saw it I was filled with awe. Staring at even just the picture of it makes me feel calm

I believe I’ve read somewhere (source needed) that cool colors are supposed to naturally help anxiety and improve creativity and memory retention.

So besides looking beautifully psychedelic in nature, it serves actual utilities too! many don’t consider things like this when they think about art, but this is just one of the many examples of artwork which serves practical purposes beyond aesthetics and decor.

Most Importantly: I am immensely grateful for both the time and effort she spent bringing this cool colored psychedelic collage to life , as well as for the discount that allowed me to afford the painting in the first place.

-Alexander Webber

10 ways to fight depression

The phenomena that many of us are familiar with known as depression is experienced among the afflicted for a variety of reasons and in a plethora of forms and levels of intensity. Sometimes healthy individuals will become depressed. This does not inherently make you mentally ill, depression is something most people will be faced with to varying extents at various points in their life. Often arising after particularly stressful, traumatic and or upsetting experience. This can be anything ranging from the death of a loved one, ended relationships, losing a job, etc.

On the other hand some people become depressed perpetually, spontaneously, and or  cyclically due to one or more of many potentially correlating illnesses. Speaking from experience as someone who was diagnosed with manic depressive (bipolar) disorder, as well as Attention Hyperactivity disorder, depression became something I found myself having to deal with on a regular basis from a strikingly young age.

This however had the benefit of having a lot of extra time to learn how to deal with and cope with it. I am not a certified counselor. Nor do I have any formally recognized measure of educational notoriety regarding psychology. I want to explicitly state before going any further I want to state that

A. this article should not serve as any form of diagnostic or authoritative source.

B. If you are experiencing depressive symptoms and you are not already seeking medical such as counseling and psychiatric care, you certainly should (provided you can afford to do so.) 

C. These methods are not intended to replace any sort of formal treatment, and one should not assume that they can top taking or refuse medication in an attempt to mange their own symptoms with these tactics.

 

These are 10 methods I have found personal success in both mitigating depressive symptoms as well as helping me to come out of the depressive phase faster.

     1. Get up and Get moving!

Easily the most hackneyed depression related advice one could get besides changing their diet, though I can’t argue its incredible effectiveness. Exercise and movement of any form tends to improve the state of ones mindset and overall cognitive performance. This could be an actual structured work-out routine, but it can be far simpler and less committed as well. It could be Going for a walk jog or run around your neighborhood or local park, taking a hike through the woods. I’m a pretty big fan of using project/chore/hobby that requires physical activity as a supplement for exercise.

It can get even easier, though obviously the less effort your willing to put in the less benefits your going to reap, but sometimes some of us really just don’t have the time or can’t be bothered to get out and go for a walk, but that doesn’t mean you have to sit in a chair or lay in bed all day (something that tends to become really easy to fall into in the midst of depression). Especially in the winter, for me it may often be something as simple as just getting up and pacing around whilst thinking in great detail, having long productive phone calls, or even while reading rather than sitting in a computer chair for hours doing these things. It might sound trivial but little things add up throughout the week; physical activity is no exception.

     2. Introduce something new into your consciousness!

Often times I find long extended period of depression to be strongly associated with an overall psychological boredom, not literally bored, but bored of existing. Something I’ve found particularly helpful whenever I feel this way is too introduce some new idea into my consciousness. This could be a plethora of things, It could be visiting a place you’ve never been, making friends, opening a unfamiliar book, searching for new music, watching a movie you’ve never seen, making a recipe you’ve never tried, trying to take up a new hobby, exploring a new website, reading through a blog (hint hint ours.)

Mental stagnancy tends to make life feel much more mundane, repetitive and dull. It’s very easy for me to get caught up spending my free time hanging out with the same people every day, doing the same thing at the same pace, listening to the same music, and going to the same few local restaurants, and studying the same few books at night when I go home.

This really starts to get to me after awhile. However as soon as i’m able manage to break my comfort zone and force myself to try new things, my disposition almost immediately becomes more exciting, pleasant, and optimistic, after awhile, taking in large quantities of new information every day just became something I had to do to feel satisfied. I’ve recently come to truly understand what all my high school teachers meant when they said they had life long commitments toward learning to say the least, and this in hindsight has been one my most valuable defenses against depression.

     3. Call someone!

Call a trusted friend, even if just to have a casual conversation. This can help in multiple ways. Though it usually helps to have a close trusted friend that one can vent their pains and frustrations too, sometimes the real value in this is positive distractions. I can’t count the amount of times Id been very depressed, angry and or anxious, and decided to phone a friend, only to be laughing at something completely irrelevant within a matter of moments.

     4. Write about your troubles!

Obviously talking helps too, but I often find myself unable to fully articulate my thoughts in conversation with even my closest of friends and associates, mostly out of a combination of fear of how I may be looked upon, and or not wanting to pass my negativity onto them. These are situations when pen and paper really come in handy.

If your anything like me, when your upset you tend to think large volumes of quite negative thoughts at a strikingly rapid pace. When this happens I often find writing it out on paper makes it much easier to understand the source of my negative thinking, extrapolate information, attempt to draw connections and conclusions, and  make a plan of application for whatever solutions I can conjure up. It allows me to logically and analytically break down my thoughts rather than being tormented and tortured by them. This can often times be quite time consuming and relief is never instant when it gets this bad, but rather this is more of like a slow walk up a long hill on a hot day.

     5. Do something artistic &or creative!

I’ve known many people who found various forms of creative expression to be indescribably helpful in battling not only depression but a whole slew of mental ailments. Everyone has their own flavors, I personally like music and writing the most but any craft or art form will do. It especially helps to create something you can keep at the end, which is why I keep everything I draw, write, and record nearly all of my instrumental and vocal practices, when you have a lot of negative thoughts being able to sift through and derive personal happiness from something you made yourself can really help curve your self perception and thought process. In my experience it tends to become a habitual coping mechanism, the more you truly enjoy what your doing the better!

     6. Meditate (or pray if your into that sort of thing)!

There any many forms of meditation, though I tend to veer toward the basic forms. This generally consists of sitting legs crossed in the lotus pose, or whatever is most comfortable for you. This is generally followed by either closing ones eyes, and doing ones best to quiet their minds whilst taking care not to outright reject or suppress any arising thoughts. The goal in mind is achieving a completely silent mind, one which resembles a calm body of water undisturbed by any ripple or splash.

I generally do this by focusing on the patterns of my breath, the sound of my heartbeat, and whatever colors, patterns or fractals might arise in my field of vision. This isn’t something that will generally arise earlier in learning meditations, but when it begins to manifest, it immediately makes the act of meditating much more enjoyable, to the point where I would almost call it addictive after a certain point, but in a good way, so maybe habitual would be a better description.

 It might be hard to get the hang of at first, but with practice, you’ll find it much easier to quiet the mind quicker and achieve deeper states of meditation more easily. Not only does it get more enjoyable and in depth as you get better and better, but the benefits it can provide for your psyche become increasingly beneficial and easier to access.

     7. Switch up (a part of) your schedule!

I’ve often found making small changes to ones schedule can often mix things up, and if there’s one thing that’s universal about combating depression: it’s change. It could be a significant change, like adding something new to your daily/weekly routine.

A series of small changes may be quite beneficial as well. Examples may include taking a different route to work, going somewhere different for lunch, listening to a different radio station. One I’ve heard has helped many is going to bed and waking up a little earlier (or later) or changing up what time you do certain things like leisure activities, hobbies, housework etc. Changing things up helps things feel fresher and less monotonous.

     8. Look for reasons to get out of the house!

This one may not apply for everyone, but its not common for depression to cause people to become increasingly introverted, antisocial and even reclusive. When this happens, no matter how hard it may be, focusing on overcoming this problem should be a priority. If this is part of your depression, conquering this aspect is incredibly crucial. In my experience it makes most other parts significantly easier.

It can be anything; Visit a friend, Go to the movies, go out to eat, go for a hike, a walk in the park, go to the beach, window shopping, get your hair done, get groceries, go to the library, the zoo, walk around with a boombox on your shoulder bumping the most obnoxious music in your library, ANYTHING! Just make it a point to leave your house every day. if your in a position where your depression or anxiety have driven you to introversion no matter how hard it may be, if you can manage to do this you WILL notice change!

     9. Release your grudges!

Whoever your brooding against, try your best to get over it(if possible.) Obviously this wont work for every situation. Over small things; it’s worth it, your psyche and your stress levels will thank you, trust me.
Bonus points if you call, visit, or write that person a letter. 

     10. Go for a drive!

This one is extremely therapeutic. Something about moving so quickly, seeing the scenery pass by, and the freedom to just go wherever you’d like.

I currently do not have a vehicle, though I find myself frequently asking and or paying friends to take me out for cruises. Especially if you live in an area without much traffic and good scenery, this can almost instantly turn a long day of self loathing and hopelessness into a moment of relief and relaxation!C

That’s all for now, I hope you found value in our post, thank you all very much for reading and lending us your time and brainpower!

This is it.

Take careful notice of the fifth diamond.

Ignore the rampant bustle which beats like a drum.

Should you leave, forget where you came from.

Rise, proceed.

Where thence were we off to?

To supply an answer would only serve to dull the fun.

Still they’d tread ever so slightly behind.

Our ironically innocent anti-hero. Whom many would fail to mark as evil in the public eye.

Was indeed anti-heroic. Their acts of heroism and selflessness were not uncommon.

Yet perpetually plagued by flaws of character. The type Only a misfit or a nihilist would idealize. For now.

His thought process, especially in terms of ethical evaluations was quite unique.

He had an almost backwards ability of self justification. He always had for every positive moral decision he made, a selfish backup reason.

Almost as if lacking desire to admit he was doing the right thing just too do it.

If everyone believes their own effort to do the right thing, who really is?

How is the right thing any better than the left thing?

Pause.

I felt that.

Felt what?

That.

How?

No clue. Semi-clue. Artifact.

Noises continually find their way to my perception.

The vision of one is anothers radar.

Pause.

Don’t auto pilot your poisons.

Perhaps I ought not dictate after being so hostile toward the bottle.

Adfectantibus Romanis Cantor

Adfectantibus Romanis Cantor

Adfectantibus Romanis Cantor
— Read on chaotickblisse.com/2019/03/27/adfectantibus-romanis-cantor/

another poem from our episodic verse project chaotick bliss!